as of late i've been stressed out about my friendships and an overwhelming feeling of solitude. i found out that four of my close(st) friends made plans without inviting me. not only that, they didn't tell me, and when prompted lied about it. for the sake of this blog being public, i won't name names. but one of them eventually told me about it and apologized for lying. which was nice, i appreciate that.
a different friend and their partner, whom i've been trying to make plans with (myself, samson, edmund, friend + partner.) they said "we should call to make these plans", and didn't call. didn't follow up. until they blamed me for not making the plans, as my parents have the hardest ruleset. which i guess makes sense, but they came at me with hostility for it and i was preemptively in a bad mood. so i cried. i do a lot of that.
anyway. i don't like talking about my emotions, so i'm cutting this one short. i've been very demotivated to write these.
clip of the day:
a game called Species Unknown i play with samson, edmund, and ethan. this was from the demo when we were deciding to buy it or not. it's fun!
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